My pregnancy with Mike was difficult, actually all of my pregnancies were difficult. I don't carry babies to term - our oldest son was 6 weeks early and our oldest daughter was 10 weeks early. When I was pregnant with Mike, he also tried to come early (10 weeks early) and I was hospitalized for 8 of those weeks. Can you imagine, being in a hospital when you have two toddlers at home? and to think we didn't have internet or facebook, gasp! I read books, did puzzles and once in a great while, watched television - can we say BORED! I enjoyed the time when I had a visitor or two but I was almost an hour away from home (in the opposite direction that most of my family traveled). I spend the last two weeks before you were born at home.
A C-section was scheduled for June 23, it was a Thursday. We planned it that way so hubby could miss the least amount of work :0). I was both nervous and excited - Mike was my first "full term" baby. I was awake during the C-section, just numb from the chest down. When he was born, I remember my first thought was that I could breathe again. I felt like I was going to throw up and they kept trying to put the oxygen mask on me. I didn't want that mask, I just had had these little feet kicking my lungs for so long that I had forgotten how it felt to breathe. *smiles* Mike was the first and only baby that I held right away - it was my one request. What a feeling that was ... indescribable!
Of course, he was the biggest baby that we had, being our only full term one, weighing 8# 5 ozs. Hubby kept saying over and over, what are we going to do?? He's so big. The nurse laughed and said, don't buy newborn clothes. He'll outgrown them before you know it. As any mom will tell you, the day a baby is born - first, second, fifth, tenth - it is the happiest day of her life.
Tomorrow, Mike would have celebrated being 24 years old. While there will be no cake or candles to blow out, I am very thankful that God gave me 23 wonderful years with my youngest son. We made many memories together and as a family - I watched him grow into a man and have 2 babies of his own to care for. These are the MOMents that I will forever cherish.
While this has been the most difficult trial (so far) that I've ever had to go through, God needed another angel. A piece of my heart resides in heaven but I also know that GOD is GREAT and He works out ALL things to His perfect plan. It is with God's strength that I will get through this ... but if I could have just one wish, it would be to see your smile just one more time!
Country FarmHouse Blessings,
~*~ Lori ~*~
♥ Purdy Mama ♥